Thursday 30 December 2010
waldein samkeat.
Wednesday 6 October 2010
tick tock.
like a sheet of frosted glass
has slipped between myself
and everything else.
Icicles form,
hanging from my ears
and nose,
the peak of my cap,
and an icy mist settles in my mind
so that nothing is willing to stir
from the warmth of the comfort zone.
Two clocks tick
we run on different time
tick, tick, tock, tock.
Stood on the edge
i am ready to step into sync
but she will ask
for her time back.
My tick will miss her tock
and the ice will set in
around my ever hopeful heart.
Saturday 18 September 2010
Friday 6 August 2010
most of which i could never recall.
Today I felt taller than usual
My head balanced precariously on my shoulders
As if it were on a pike.
I ducked through the shop door,
Looked intently at the shelves of overpriced food
and became stubbornly monosyllabic
“Is that all?”
“Yes.”
“That’s £2.60 please.”
“Cheers.”
“Do you want a bag?”
“No…” reluctantly adding “thanks” under my breath
Deep rooted politeness.
Realisation set in around 9:30pm.
I had made mistake, we needed to talk,
I would get on a train, things could change.
But it didn’t, and I didn’t, it couldn’t.
By 4am the birds sang for dawn and I was adamant it was over.
We had chased for a year with only 4 months to show for it
Our energy spent, words escaped us.
Distractions plagued my visions almost instantaneously.
Potential interest periodically confused
With simple kindness.
Today I felt smaller than usual
The ceiling lower, the duvet drowned me.
The part of my mind set aside for the us and the we had
Seemingly vanished.
It did not, had not existed.
It had blown away in the wind,
Been washed away by the tide,
Was plucked out of my head by a mind altering drug.
All that remained was her eager vocabulary
And the dull chime of her voice
During those last, broken conversations.